Not Me Monday

I haven't been spending the time I should be studying, reading other people's blogs, NOPE NOT ME

I didn't make Kit do dinner tonight because I was totally exhausted from being up for almost 48 hours. NOPE NOT ME

I am not sitting here at 12:40am typing in my blog because I really don't want to go to sleep. NOPE NOT ME

So for one I actually did a Not Me Monday. I'm sure next weeks will be even longer.

Children: Do I want more or should I stay at 3

So for awhile now, after everyone around me has had their kids, I have been debating if we should go with the fourth one. I feel like I have had this calling for either having another one, (which we all know is impossible because I'm fixed) or looking into adoption. Since none of my other pregnancies were planned, I so want to be in charge of this opportunity. I have been praying about this for several months now. I always knew I wanted four kids, but didn't think I would find someone who was willing to take on those four with me. So as I begin this journey into making my ultimate decision, I hope you will pray for us. Kit is all for us having another one, so its really my decision if I want to go ahead and make it official.

Now I would love to be pregnant again, no matter the weight gain or the morning sickness, or my ankles swelling or even with all three previous pregnancies going into premature labor, I loved it. But there is a side of me that wants to be able to provide a home for a child, who needs one. But where do I start, do I want to be able to have an open adoption??? Which by the way I think is awesome, or do I want a closed one? Do I want a foreign or domestic adoption? All these things I have to think about and pray about. And I know a lot of people are thinking what I am going to do with four kids?? I know what its all about is having fun.

So with all that being said, I am currently in the process of looking for my own birthparents. I have paid the fees, done the counseling, and now I am patiently waiting for the call or letter saying they have found them. This my dears has been going on for almost a year now. I am almost positive that I have half siblings out there somewhere and I would love to meet them.

Please pray for Kit and I that we make the best decision for our family, that God will lead us in the right direction, that no matter what the outcome is, its ultimately in God's hands and we have no idea what His plan is. Also that I have a peace if my birthfamily doesn't want to meet me or be apart of my life.

Its been a couple weeks

Well it's been a couple weeks since I posted, Christmas and New Years came and went, the kids had a wonderful Christmas and I was exhausted. I made the decision at the last minute to pull Brianna out of Clay Road because one the cost was making me dizzy $1105.00 a month is a lot of money, and two one of my best friends is a teacher at Kids R Kids where I used to work. So Bri, is now in Kids R Kids and enjoying every minute she is there with her. Also because I am saving over half of what I was spending I have put Brycen there as well. Potty training and his language skills are lacking, so he's where I trust people to watch over him. This gives me two days a week where I don't have any kids from 9:00 til 2:30. I get my school work done and actually join a bible study that I have been wanting to do. I am looking forward to it.

Besides that, Kit left for the weekend to go to San Antonio, and low and behold didn't one of the kids get sick. Saturday night I had to take Brycen to the emergency room and he is diagnosed with pnuemonia, bronchitis, upper respitory infection, double ear infections, and just plain sick. We haven't slept much in the last 48 hours so I am hoping maybe tonight he will sleep for me. They put him on an antibiotic, a steroid to help him breathe and cough meds. Please pray for us that he gets over this really soon.